No, we still have not received an answer as to why Nathan passed that night. Things included on list are: seizure, heart problems and ?. (We were totally unaware of any heart problems... that was a shock to us.)
It was just a regular night for us... we said prayers, tucked him in, said I love you and told him to have sweet dreams... just like the night before and the night before that. Erich was to be at a Haz-mat meeting, but they had cancelled it. (something that rarely happens) Thought about getting a sitter and going out to supper, but she was sick. We were both meant to be home that night. We both think back to that night... we had no idea how our lives were about to be changed.
The Lord knew the date of Nathan's birth and he knew the date he would go home to heaven. Nathan's baptismal verse was: I have called you by name, you are mine. Isaiah 43:1 I know that he was a gift from the Lord, I just didn't realize I would have to give him back so soon.
He will remove all of their sorrows, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. For the old world and its evils are gone forever. Revelation 21:4
I read you prayer request on Kelly's blog. I know where you are and I cry with you. Our son Michael died July 7, 2008. He was 34 so we did have longer with him. Michael was porencephaly, VA and VP shunted, had a seizure disorder and was a pituitary dwarf - after growth hormone shots he was 4'7" tall. He functioned fairly high and was very verbal and loved to read. He loved Sesame Street when he was younger, I loved the birthday cake! He had an almost photographic mind but he couldn't always apply what he knew. He attended an adult school and was part of a work situation. He never met a person he didn't like and he didn't hold a grudge.
ReplyDeleteMichael had lived in his own home with Independent Living caregivers for 3 years. We had done this to prepare him for the time we would be gone, now we realize God was preparing us for the time Michael would be gone. Our prayer was that we would always be here to care for him. Like you, we just didn't want him to be taken so soon.
Michael has a younger sister (5'9") who just turned 34 and she has a beautiful daughter that is 15 months. Claire has definitely brought back some of our joy.
This will be a long road of firsts, but the second and third years are still hard. A friend told me that her second year was harder (her son died at 24 from a brain tumor) and I think that is bacause the shock wears off and the reality really hits.
We recently read a book, "Heaven is for Real". We know that Michael is in Heaven and we know what the Bible says about Heaven, but in this book, a little 4 year old apparently went to Heaven and gradually told his family about Heaven and what he saw. His father is a pastor and he backs up some of what Colton saw with scripture. They have been on Fox or a morning show. Colton is now about 12. Having a special needs child that thinks on a simple level, this book was very comforting. He relayed that there were lots of children and lots of color.(Michael always drew rainbows and we saw a rainbow the afternoon he was buried, our daughter and her husband saw a rainbow on their way home that afternoon, and two weeks later when our step-granddaughter was here for the first time, we saw 3 rainbows during the day.
We keep loaning out this book so I can't tell you the author, but I would recommend that you read "Heaven is for Real". We will keep you in our prayers, this is a hard path to walk even when you know it is God's will.